My life is at a time of exciting possibilities. The Computer Guy and I have had many potentialities (is that a word?)presented to us in the past few weeks. Paths which could take us to new places in our family and our life together.
It is exhilarating to allow my mind to wonder down the path of "what if." What if I could do the things that have been proposed to me, could I actually do it? What if I failed? Could I live with seeing myself flop? Scarier still, what if I succeeded?
I'm like that kid on the high dive, peeking over the edge, contemplating either grand adventure or my own demise.
I once was a girl who would have shouted "What the heck?" into the wind and thrown myself headlong at this crazy thing. I would never have even seen the chance of failure. It would never have occurred to me that succeeding could be anything but grand.
What happens to us as we get older? Some people call it wiser, but I call it safe. There was a time I would have declared safe to be boring, but I've had enough of exciting and interesting to last me until I'm 90. I've learned that one girl's boring is another's bliss. I've grown comfortable with boring.
I'm not sure that comfortable is where I'm supposed to be.
5 comments:
come on... we're coming up on the anniversary of THE New Years trip across country... Harness the "What the Heck"... Love you!
If one of your possibilities is writing a book, I'd like to encourage you. You are a wonderful writer and your subject matter has one foot on earth and the other in Heaven. Christmas blessings to you and yours!
Truly, what would happen if you did fail? Would your family love you any less? Would they respect you any less? Just thoughts. I'm not saying do it or don't do it. That is up to you and your family, but praying that you make the right choice. :)
Have a wonderful Christmas.
Don't tell me that Computer guy's company is moving you to South America or something...I won't stand for it (actually, even though I would miss you, I would probably be a little jealous!)
Love, Suzanne
Suzanne, No trips to South America anytime soon. If it starts looking that way I'll let you hide in my suitcase.
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