Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Peace at Any Cost?

Our sweet boy who chews has been undergoing extensive psychological testing in an effort to figure out how to help him.  I'll admit to hoping for a magic pill.  Every time I dropped him off or picked him up from the office, I would pray quietly "Just let there be a pill, an easy fix.  Please let there be a magic bullet.  I know his life never works this way, but just once let it be simple. Please, please, please."

We got the results yesterday, and for part of it there is a little magic pill.  A pill, or combination of pills, which will calm down the worry and anxiety in his young mind.  It works on the part which causes anxiety which is the part which causes the chewing.  It's never that simple.  The part of the mind which causes anxiety is also the area which houses the imagination.  To calm the worry would quiet the wonder.

He is my imaginative child.  He's the boy who takes a box and builds a castle, takes some old clothes and a cape and becomes Zorro, takes paper and assorted odds and ends and creates an elaborate collection of toys and scenery.  You cannot separate the boy from his imagination.  I simply cannot envision #3 without a cape.  He would no longer be the boy we love.

There is a magic pill, but it would take away from him all that he is.  We refuse to live without him. There is no magic pill for him.  He will have to work at it.  But he will have the help of a family who loves him and thinks that all that he is is too wonderful to live without.  We will have to help him to work at it, all of us together.  Please pray that we will be enough.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

You're completely right, Rebecca. He will have my prayers. I am crying for you guys.

Love, Suzanne

Maurisa said...

This is heart wrenching. I cannot even imagine having to make the choice you have to make. God's will be done. I'll be praying for you.

Michele said...

praying... many prayers

Nod said...

Hmm, very difficult. There are no magic answers here, I'm afraid.

One of my family has an anxiety disorder and struggled with it for a long time; it was much worse in the teen years. This is the kind of decision that you can revisit periodically depending on changes in circumstance.

It will help tremendously that he is in a loving family that is willing to love and nurture him and work at it.

Be assured of my prayers.

In the meantime ... chewing gum?

aka the Mom said...

No gum, ice.

Packrat said...

Prayers for all of you!